thanks to Lina arriving unannounced, forcing herself through my house gates or i would have never left the house. and to Fairuz for the "sympathy not empathy" remedy. today the pair made me happy since the day i started to convert to Zombienity. Congratulations!

but Chy is a bitch. She was laughing loudly and told me the weirdest but the most advice i actually needed. PLEASE STAY FRIENDS WITH ME FOREVER YOU CRAZY MAGIC INDIAN WANNABE.

Naz, Nik, Daos, Juf. Thank you for you know what :)

so my story is

"You can be in love and you can be in a relationship. But they're not always the same thing."

i am in love with D. so much in love that i'll wait.

maybe i overlooked this before, but now i respect and support his intentions. because he's a good guy. he's the kind of guy who leaves you your favorite flowers, plays with you your favorite game, walks you home after a long day, gets angry at you for travelling alone, surprises you with his house key, doesn't complain when you snore right in the middle of the afternoon, even when he does then you hit him with a pillow, the kind of guy you don't feel ashamed to be wearing striped zebra pyjamas leggings, to look ugly and horrible because he just lets you be who you are and likes you for it. he's the guy you don't have anything in common with and you don't want to talk to him all the time but you love having him around because you know, those butterflies? he rears a whole farm in your tummy.

so have you felt like that before? you will know when you do and it's a wonderful feeling i promise you

1) i don't get all this hype on MJ's death. sure he is a legend, but relax, it's not like he was our best friend for the past 30 years.

2) i look like i am off my rocker speaking in baby language to Obi Wan Kenobi. i yev yew my yittle panjda bear

3) i find myself extra affectionate these two three days. i keep XO ing my mother every chance i get. :D

4) i wish Tiger Azami is my next door neighbor. i want to braid his bee hive hair and pop in at whatever time of the day and listen to his puberty problems. it makes me happy.

5) my parents are cute, literally. i am fat and ugly and i want to die

6) my baby sister is the sweetest monkey ever. she made this "I LOVE YOU" plasticine thingamajig on my desk

7) this holidays is all about the family. All.

8) i'm not too keyed up because i am supposed to be doing my revisions

9) Mookie and Minky are grown ups now. how adorable it is to see them finning madly in the gazebo pond. oh, and Noddy is dead. my father killed him. 

10) i have been saving my hair forever to grow this long. it was fine to carry the mane in Cardiff but now being sun-soaked and shet, i look like that dancing lion from Madagascar.

11) either the boy is turning his back on me or he's just basking in one of his loopy phases. i don't think he takes "i miss you" seriously

12) i think i have used five animal tropes in this post. panda, tiger, monkey, fishes, lion. duuuude, i am such an animal lover.